an inner voice for an exurb1a video
It may seem when you look around at the others around you, it only looks as though everyone else has some kind of plan for life.
We have built a culture where we aggressively enforce the idea that confronting the sad truths of the world unhealthy, or weird, despite the fact that we all do it. Under all of it, under all the nice birthday cards and social media pleasentries, everyone is a total mess.
And you should be one too.
The Worst Day of Your Life
Right now theres around ~8 billion humans on the world right now, and given that there are on average about 26,000 days in the average human life:
chances are about 300,000 people are having the worst day of their entire lives… TODAY!!!!
And isn’t it wonderful that we are not one of them( but our time will come at some point of course ).
What does one do when ones life has fallen apart?
Lets think a little about the worthlessness of some*
Some Unimportant People
One obscure composer you might not have heard of, who in 1876 wrote to his nephew saying:
Indeed, my life is of little worth to anyone… Were I to vanish from the face of the earth today, it would be no great loss for Russian music
This was actually well, you know, Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky, one of the greatest composers who ever lived…
Or take some obscure writer, a struggling unknown.
He considered himself hideously ugly and stupid, and wrote to his friend requesting that after his death all his writings and belongings were to be burned.
He died at 40 of tuberculosis, and his friend, of course, disobeyed his wishes and had it published instead. This man was, of course, Franz Kafka, aruably one of the greatest writers of the last century.
These are artists, though, so I guess the whole self hating schtick kind of just comes with the job… But they aren’t alone.